Ending.....and A New Beginning

21st December 2012 which is supposed to be the end of the world.....somehow manage to get everyone's attention and becoming the topic of the day.... Well, I don't really care too much bout it as I am not scared if it happens because if it does....good....life ends without having me to decide how....

And it didn't happen today.... But something inside me died....the passion for my work....its been a busy week for the last 3 weeks and not happy over the last event I'm involved in... And yea....someone got promoted

It's not because I'm jealous of him getting the promotion but I just felt that...it's not a necessary thing... We have two senior staff already and they just got promoted last year and what's the point to have another senior of a year plus with the company? It's weird and yea...I just felt I'm useless because even I do more than people, if you do not know how to make the upper management see it....no one will!!

Getting tired of this kinda situation, I felt like giving up....wanted to resign and do some small business...and if it fails.... That's it....:(

Life's not so fair....it never does.... Shame on me

Like This

No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be and no thought can hurt as much as the thought of a love that could have been.

They say if you work hard people will notice you, but I think no matter how hard I've worked... people still thinks that they've work harder than I do and only those who knows how to grab the credits wins..... Reality.... F u....

Still here

Yea am still here alive.... Jz busy n there's another week to go before I can really enjoy my usual weekends again n Xmas n New Years..... N er.... End of the world maybe....

L

One OFF thing about Facebook is when u see that ur ex-s are doing well and you're becoming a loser somehow..... Shit!

Major depression

Back n missing it

Been back from Melbourne for almost a week now.... N I'm kinda missed my time there , the cold weather, the places n old buildings and those people n .... Ah everything.......

I wanna stay there forever!!!!!

I'm Sexy N I........

Being gym less is no fun at all and I'm kinda lost track of what day is it since I use to be at gym on Monday n Wednesday.....

I seriously miss shaking my bootay.... I mean dancing..... Can't wait to be back for Kerri's class at Extreme for a month and to decide if it's good over there....

The Way Of The Turtle

Yes u read it right... The way of a the turtle.... Take it slow n steady.... Don't worry too much and don't rush as it will only blind u in a way u will regret not to slow down a little in live....

Been worry for so many things on my trip, work n financial.... N today I somehow clear off my mind and try to settle down a little.... It it can be solved then it's not really a problem.... Rite!???? Yea... Slow n steady...

Commitment

For 3 months now I'm carrying extra burden on my shoulder... A little more commitment of RM 900 / mth for the family... Well maybe not little... It's HUGE!!!!

Feeling a little uneasy looking at how fast the money in my bank went off flying..... Based on the way I spend my money.... This is way bad as I will not be saving any money from now onwards... The most I can do is RM30/mth....

Yea shitty situation huh..... Feeling insecure every time I spend....hope this feeling will go away and everything will be better....

2 Weeks & Financial Dilema

It's about 2 weeks before I will be on my flight to Melbourne for the 1st time... Things are going as planned with slight changes but I believe this changes will allow me to explore more and getting some of my bucket list ticked.....

Just can't wait but at the same time I am having some financial dilema as in one side I am willing to spend money for the trip and in the other hand I am struggling to plan my expenses as my bank are getting negative from month to month.....

And with that, it is crazy but I have to say that if u have exes in ur Facebook..... Somehow they makes u feel like wanting to spend more..... Cuz for my case, looking at them having fun time on their own holidays does makes me felt like wanting mine to be as fun as well.... I can't really describe how this happens but I just do.....

Second Inking Ideas

Done & Forward

The project I've been struggling for the past few month finally come to an end yesterday with a success!!!! Phew took a deep breathe and finally I can focus on my Melbourne trip this coming October.....

Thank God that everything went in smoothly for the past 2 days event and am happy to be there meeting people and social around with people.

Booked my trip next year to Seoul Korea!!!!! Yeah!!!!! Can finally turn another bucket list over but this does mean I'm kinda broke at the moment and trying to save money for the trip next year..... Not easy as I know I am quite a big spender but this is just another test for myself....

Neway, I'm happy for now and just hope nothing major will happen until early next year....

Sweet Boys

Don't get me wrong with that title there.... But I do really met 2 cute n sweet boys a few days ago.... Coming up to Pg from KL jz to help me with my on going project.... I can't thank them enuf n am scared to bring them bad news later on next week if no one turn up for the auction thingy....

They came up with the lorry but did not seek for any place for shelter... No hotel or motel on the list... They r planning to stay over night at the 24 hour McD... Which really make my heart sunk.... So in the end i decided to bring them around PG as this is their 1st time here...

It rained really heavy n in the end of the day I still drop them off at McD ... Just like how they want it to be...

Neway, I've done what I can and good to know that they actually decided to go for a cheap motel to stay over as the wifi are not working for them to work on their assignments.....

Dream

I don't feel like going home

It's Always Me

Every time when there's argument between me and my sis.... It's always my fault....

I'm like the one with the label "The One To Be Blame" ..... How am I supposed to help when I don't even know there's a problem???? Am
I supposed to automatically receive the signal of something is going wrong right after I open the door?

Am getting tired of this that Being blame not helping or no contribution or what so ever to the family..... I've done what I can and when I am in trouble I don't ask from family 1st but solve it with on my own.... And is this still called selfish??

What's going on with the family here!!!!?

The Shit Way It Is

Yes, every time when I got a new vision of what I wanna do in my life jz for a moment, it got ripped off...

Having this fear that I won't be dancing anymore in the future is really getting into my nerves and as I mention that I'm lost.

How many time does this needs to repeat? It always happen and it seems like I can't have 2 great things in my life...... NEVER

Feeling Lost

Hate this kinda feeling......Lost.... Am not sad or anything but I just cant force a smile on my face n my mind is full of thought and worries that I can't seems to identify...

Yea probably cuz the gym is closing down and am not sure where to go next...6years is a pretty long for me to be so loyal to a gym event the service sucks year by year....

Working the whole weekends for more than 12 hours a day is pretty hectic and is playing a lot of stuffs in my mind and now this???? Huh...

I'm just LOST.......:(

Next Ink-ing Ideas

Trying hard to get inspiration on what should I get for my next tattoo.... Since I got kanji tattoo on my left arm, I'm thinking to have the whole area only for Japanese tattoos.... Was thinking bout koi fish but most of them I saw online was big n colored.... Am not a fan of color tattoos.... Hmmmmm

Probably I might starting a new area instead of my left arm.... Somewhere around the collar bone....:)

Tik Tok Tik Tok...You're OLD

Working on Saturday morning while most people are enjoying the long holidays this weekends.... Been Whatsapp-ing with Joey the whole morning and we are somehow missing the time when we went clubbing like almost every month and hanging out every weekends....

It makes us realize that we are getting old as we do not club that much anymore...in fact we stopped for like 3 years now!!!!! (GOSH) but at least we still hang out for beers occasionally with that means..... few months once..... >.<

Most of the gang got married and married people are no longer young at heart (at least in my case).... they are no longer Wild N Young N Free......

But I don't want that to happen!!.... and so is Joey.... It may sound desperate but it is true that we are now only hangs out for birthday (thank GOD we still do that) n lunch when we are desperately need to rant.... o.0

I just can't imagine me stepping into the 3 Zone by next year... Things might be even worse compare to now....

Homosexuality

Definition of Perfect Guy??! JayPark

Well he is my definition of the perfect guy..... The face, the body n most of all the tattoos.. Wooohoooo

Blogger on iPad

Posting using my iPad....:)

Augustus 2012

August... the year is gonna end soon... A little updates on the previous...

1. Enjoying Instagram-ing and stalking someone on it... ;)

2. Enjoy my outing with Pet @ Brussels

3. Enjoying outing on Joey's Bday and Snow Beer!!!!!

4. Bought myself New iPad and max out my cc

5. Met Eugene for the 1st time and is missing it but What's Love gotta do..gotta do with it!!!!?~~~~

6. Anticipating how August is gonna treat me.... am not ready for the worst.. >.<

I.R.O.N.I.C

I.R.O.N.I.C is the only word I can say....

1. I am drinking coffee which causes me sleepless night only when I need to wake up super early for 3 days straight...

2. I saw him and instantly reminds me to live my life without second doubts... only when I was about to give up and starts to slack with my blog entries...

3. There's someone who is willing to love me when I am already attached... and it hurts becuz I things will work out between us if it's not becuz of the latter...

4. I am financially concern whenever I am planning to spend my money on gadgets (iPad, 42" LCD Screen for my room, new gaming desktops and a lot more)

Basically I am all over the place as I am not sure what am I doing now...

Recovering from the office matter and I finally decided to stop my flirting with Eugene. I know it some how hurtful to him but all I can do is ....Sorry..... (yea i know am bad)

Done some calculation yesterday and just to find out that my monthly expenses was way to far from what I am earning.... it's been a Negative figure and I didn't know it!!!! SHUCK!!!! Credit DEBTS...

Am now depending on my previous savings to survive the coming months not to mention Melbourne Trip on the way....

It's gonna be like a war zone fighting tickets to BIG BANG concert !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

End Of The World

Is it end of the world yet> Becuz if it is.... then I'll just go crazy with my life....F those people to dares to find fault with me when I'm in this mode.. Nothing seems to go the right way for me....

Some people make the right choices while some don't...  For me.. I tend to do wrong choice cuz I can't control myself.....

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Neway... last Sat went out with Elaine, Joey & Bongkot...It's been while since I hang out late with frens... Had a really nice outing where we end up having beer and due to some mistake.... buying 1 buckets free us 2 more buckets instead of 2 bottles..... 0.o....

The Down Time

Emotion swings like crazy.... ups & downs of life came like a tornado / tsunami...

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Staying Positive

Some question are not meant to be asked so directly nor make fun with.... But I guess there's no point having a negative mind....

To Paradise Is Where We Should

Keep Dancing

Well, I have to say many people don't see me as a dancer... I love to dance and I think I can dance pretty well based on the usual Kerri's classes at the gym... It was a fun one today and I was picked to dance with another 3 like top dancer in the class...

I am glad to be back to dancing actually cuz thats the time Dancing is all I think about... nothing bothers me... I have to say I was born to dance but unfortunately... I won't be living this dream..

I do hope I can still continue to dance until I can't anymore.. >.<

I wanna prove to people that no matter how you look, how old you are...if you have the passion to dance....Keep On Dancing.... cuz if that's you.... it will always be YOU!

What The...

Not feeling very happy this few days since the argument with my boss last Fri... Well it's for something stupid that he does not wanna take responsible... I admit I'm wrong too but you have to bare the same thing because it does reflect who you are as a boss too.. :P

Neway.. Been missing gym lately and felt like gaining extra fat here and there... And I wonder where did all the good looing guys go at the gym?? Been missing some of them... no motivation at all ..LOL

Officially Inked

29th June 2012 marks the day of changes in my life as I finally got myself inked.... it's gonna stay with me forever and I don't think it will stop only with this one.... I can see myself having the 2nd near future...

After been thinking bout it for years.... i finally chosen the wordings I wanted to tattoo on my arm.. It's Japanese Kanji which say ' This Is My Life'....

So how do I feel? Well... it's not as painful as what I think it is.... well a little stinging feeling but it's a pain I can bare....

Finally another Bucket List done!!..and this is really an amazing ones.... family doesn't know it yet... hope they will not find out so soon.... I dunno what to say if they do....

Probably I'll just say..' This Is My Life, and I do what I like!" :P

KL Day 2

Day 2 at KL was just a so-so day for us... 1st is cause we're stuck in the jam and 2nd was i-City... duh... it's more like a Dead City to me... event zombie will die due to starving... there's no people visiting this place anymore!!!! but it supposed to be new.....

Neway, start the day traveling to Mid Valley.. after walking around we stop for a short tea break at Yogi Trees....It's a nice place to hang out for Hi-Tea with friends other than that nothing special...

After asking around what's the best way tp i-City, we took a taxi which cost us about rm 29... yea that much to a deserted area with no zombie spotted... garrgh...

Went in for the SnoWalk where I felt a little relief as there's a bunch of middle east tourist in there enjoying the cold walk.... spend bout 1 hr or so in there and we decided to leave the 'zombie area 51' without second thought to wait for the lights go off..... going back to town cost us RM 40 for taxi and got stuck in the traffic jam again....

reach BB area at bout 8.30pm or so... We had dinner at Pavillion as that's our fav place in KL.. :D

Had a Japanese Dinner and it was good but of cuz expensive too >.<

That's for the second day which ended up watching Abraham Lincoln mid night show....

KL Day 1

Continue with my trip in KL...

Train arrived at KL around 12pm in the afternoon and KL Sentral is as packed as I remembered... having some difficulty finding the monorail to our hotel as there were some construction going on and the signage is kinda messy as well.... Finally found our way to the monorail station and reached the hotel couple of minutes later...

As expected we are gonna stay at a budget hotel along Jalan Alor.... Apple Hotel...The room is small so it is not recommended for traveling family or those with kids... but it's good for a short trip or couple like us :P

This is the bathroom...

 

A small LCD TV for late night entertainment

 

And the King Size Bed...

After taking a short rest at the hotel we went straight to Pavillion as this is actually my first time there..

We chose Carl's Jr. as our lunch since we don't have that in Penang and we heard that it is real good...

erm.... it's nothing special ...really.... :P

after that spend the whole afternoon window shopping around Pavillion, Farenheit 88 and bukit bintang area.... Loving the Tokyo Street that sells all Japanese street food and snacks and more...

Enjoyed the 1st day in KL and it's really like living in a very different place compared to Penang... It's like a City and Town... o.0