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Hate it when my emotion turns from super high to super low.... Shit happen too many times....

2 more days

2 more days to my big day....yep....

Is on a very diff daily diet at the moment... I'm trying to avoid rice..yea I know...being Asian without rice is like a big deal...but I have to deal with it if its giving too much carb than I reli need....neways...

Diet is more to salad, bacon, eggs n toast...not daily though... I think it's good to change diet slowly....

This feeling....damn

Am getting this feeling like I will soon be missing something in future...cant really describe the feeling but its eating me...

This is not good... and I hate if anything like that happen. ..what happen to the motivation thing I felt last week? Its like a total 360 change. ..arrrg

This feeling....

Am having a feeling that I somehow can't explain..... It's a combination go excited, anxious n crazy.... Nah don't get me wrong...am not seeing anyone at the moment....

I guess I jz need more of mallow610 & lafond66 to make me calm n it's reli the best thing I can have now....

Neway...was thinking of getting a small tattoo on my wrist as due to my skin problem I am not sure to do the big ones..... Will be turning 30 next week and I dun felt like celebrating it....reli...NO

I wanna be young ..... Sobsssssss

I need more

Watching youtube videos can sometimes be so addictive...I wan more n more even thought I already been watching it for the whole nite yday....

Gosh its the only thing now that motivates me tru the day

Not Gay Enough

I jz felt like I am not being gay enuf to be a gay guy...lol...I dun use makeup...I dun dress to kill most of the time...

I dun bitch enuf...I .....dont know. ..

I think I need to replenish myself n get out of the closet n be who I reli is...then I can enjoy my life...

I got this from watching coming out story videos on YouTube. ...yes blame them...lol

Its time maybe.....

T.I.H.U

It means. TIME I HATE U